Diary of an Ex-Smoker

Diary of an Ex-Smoker


I was 12 years old, and smoking, believe it or not, was a way of making yourself look attractive to the girls. It wasn’t frowned upon like it is now- tobacco advertising was everywhere, in fact was positively encouraged! I can remember one time when my mother was depressed, our doctor advised her to have one of my dad’s ciggies to calm her nerves down!

Anyway I started at about twelve years with the other lads behind the bike sheds at school.

I smoked all my life, starting with Park Drive, (you could buy one fag and a match from the corner shop). Moved to Woodbine, then in around 1964 when I left school I was smoking a new cig on the market called No.6 all my life up to being 60 years old I smoked around 30 a day. Yes I was a heavy smoker but I loved it.




I remember about 15 years ago trying to stop using an NHS smoking cessation programme

I used the gum, and for 6 consecutive weeks had to go along to the meeting and have my CO2 level taken and given encouragement to ‘keep up the good work.’

After 6 weeks you are on your own, and the NRT is very expensive, much more than the cheap knock-off baccy I was using. Anyway, I struggled on for about another week but I was still dying for a smoke and eventually gave in, and started smoking again.  About a month later I received a beautiful diploma from the NHS congratulating me on being a non-smoker and that I should be so proud of myself.




This Christmas, all the Family were having a big get-together, and we’d been planning it for weeks.

A couple of days before the event, I was taking the dog for a walk when I got an awful tightness in my chest, along with a searing pain in my left arm. I sat on a wall for a couple of minutes and it subsided, and I felt good again. I didn’t mention it to my wife and went off to work.

It happened again at work, and again the next morning and it happened again, when I returned home the house was full of family, so, not wanting to spoil the occasion, decided to say nothing.

I loved a Cigar at Christmas time, and I was chain-smoking them.

The rest of Christmas Day went without another incident, and I had quite a bit to drink (as you do) and went to bed about 2 am.  About 6 am I was woken by a bladder that was at bursting point.  I swung my legs out of bed and I swear to God that Mike Tyson hit me with all his strength in the middle of my chest.  Now I had to tell my wife!!

It felt as though someone was pumping my left arm full of boiling water and I was struggling to breathe, as if I’d got a very heavy weight on my chest.

My wife dialled 999.  I could hear what she was saying, and she turned to me and said that an ambulance would be here in less than 5 minutes.

I tried to roll a fag before it arrived (that’s how stupid we can be), but had another heart attack.

I was rushed to hospital with blue lights flashing, within minutes I was in theatre, where I had two stents fitted.  Apparently, I was moments from dying.

The operation was a complete success and I will never be able to thank the NHS enough!


I had a heart attack and whilst we were waiting for the ambulance to arrive, I started rolling a cig, that's how addicted I was! 



I went down the NRT route again, patches first but to my dismay, I found that  I was allergic to them so I tried the gum again but couldn't handle the acid indigestion, hiccups, and an awful taste that went with it.

Ah, the inhalator, a great idea if it worked! It didn’t and I got more enjoyment from chewing on it than actually using it the way it is intended.

After suffering three months of sheer hell, I discovered the electronic cigarette, and loved it from day one! I have NEVER craved a cigarette in the nine years since I started vaping.

I can walk the dog now first thing in the morning without coughing my lungs up.  I simply don’t cough anymore! My sense of taste has returned and I feel great.  According to my GP, my lung capacity has improved, and capacity increased.

My blood pressure is normal, without drugs for the first time in years.  I am now looking forward to retirement, without worrying how I can afford to smoke.

So YES, Electronic cigarettes have not just changed my life, they have saved it.





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